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Shewillbeloved_21

1. Shewillbeloved_21
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   March 15, 2013 5:42pm UTC
   I'm no longer scared of killing myself, I'm just scared of what might happen if I fail.
   
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2. Shewillbeloved_21
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   January 11, 2013 12:39pm UTC
   I wish I was the kind of girl who could get a hundreds likes on her facebook photos. I wish I was the kind of girl who got comments like, "gorgeous", stunning", "beautiful" on her photos. I wish I was the kind of girl who could wear a bikini and be proud of my body. I wish I was the kind of girl that other girls want to be. I wish I was the kind of girl that doesn't need any make-up to feel pretty. I wish I was the kind of girl who could roll out of bed in the morning, take a photo and still look gorgeous. I wish I was the kind of girl that could look good in anything. I wish I was the kind of girl that people could call beautiful.
   They tell you to be yourself, but it's so hard when you don't even know yourself. They tell you to be happy with who you are, but how can you,
   when everyone else around you is so much better?
   
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3. Shewillbeloved_21
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   January 11, 2013 12:26pm UTC
   I'm scared I'll be alone forever and when I say that I truly mean it. Who could love a girl with more cuts than friends? More blades than confidence? More pain than beauty? and most of all, who could love a girl who looks like I do? Nobody.
   
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4. Shewillbeloved_21
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   January 11, 2013 12:18pm UTC
   Do you know what it feels like to not want to wake up anymore? It's no longer pain, sadness or even anger. It's beyond that. It's this completely numb feeling that leaves you feeling so unbearably empty. Hollow almost, like there's nothing left of you. That's when you become a living ghost
   
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5. Shewillbeloved_21
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   January 11, 2013 12:12pm UTC
   Have you ever felt like you don't know what's going on anymore. Like you don't know what's going on anymore and you don't care about anything anymore. You've lost motivation to do anything. Your mind is set on too many things that you're confused about your feelings & you can't explain how you feel either. The feeling of emptiness and feeling that nobody's there for you. Feeling that nobody understands you. And it seems like there's nothing to look foward to anymore.
   
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6. Shewillbeloved_21
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   January 11, 2013 12:03pm UTC
   Oh you think you know me? You don't know how many times I've cried myself to sleep. You don't know how many times I was on the verge of suicide. You don't know how many times I sat over the toilet with my hand down my throat. You don't know how many times I didn't eat for days. You don't know how many times I put a blade to my own body. You don't know how many times I felt so low that I couldn't feel anything at all. You don't know me one bit.
   
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7. Shewillbeloved_21
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   December 29, 2012 11:30am UTC
   You find yourself losing friends more and more. It's harder to get on with people, including your parents. You wish your parents would notice you're not ok although you don't want them to fuss. You want help but you also want to be left alone. You worry that people think you're an attention seeker by constantly looking upset, so you try to smile and keep happy but you break down when you get home, when nobody is watching. You worry that you're friends think you're paranoid. You actually do become quite paranoid. You could do with someone to remind you that you're beautiful and everything's going to be ok - but nobody's there. You feel so alone. You've recently been feeling an overwelming amount of homesickness. You hate growing up, you want to be young again. You desperately want to go back in time. You'd change something if you could. You wish you'd never met that one person. You want someone to come back, who never will. You get home, get under the covers and cry. Sometimes you wish you were dead. You feel guilty for wishing you were dead, as there are many people dying who don't want to die. Some days you need to listen to music, other days you really don't want to. You love walks in the rain. You watch romantic films and then get back to boring reality. You want to change so much about yourself, maybe even yourself completely. You find yourself smiling and laughing less. You hate the word depressed but you constantly find yourself being miserable.
   
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8. Shewillbeloved_21
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   December 14, 2012 1:53pm UTC
   I'm so broken. It's become so obvious. I'm emotionally destroyed and there's nothing to do expect watch me fall apart. Each day it gets worse, nothing ever gets better. I'm so alone in this world that it's really starting to get to me. I always have to remind myself that it's my own failt that people don't like me. It's all my fault. I'm fat and ugly. There's no one to blame but myself. It's so hard because nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows what I have to put up with on a daily basis. No one knows anything about me. They know me as this shy, happy, smiley, girl but that's not even close to what I am. It's all an act. It's all just a lie. People always tell me to 'just get over it' but how could I ever get over something so curel. I will never get over all the words people said to me. I will never forget the pain that I was in. I will never forget the night that I was in so much pain that I grabbed a blade for the first time and glided it across my wrist just so I could give myself the pain that I deserve. I'll never forget the night that I shoved my finger down my throat to make me thin. I won't forget the day I decided that a piece of gum was the right amount to eat that day. I'll never forget the night my mom went mad and had a mental breakdown. I won't forget the nights I cried myself to sleep with no one to tell me that it was all going to be okay. I won't forget the 30+ cuts on my arm that I did because I was so upset. Don't tell me to get over it when you know nothing. Do you think I like being this sad? No I don't but this sadness is all I have. This sadness has consumed me. And it's far too late to save me.
   
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9. Shewillbeloved_21
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   December 3, 2012 8:26pm UTC
   I cant do this anymore. Everything's becoming too muh and I have no reasons to stay alive.
   
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10. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 24, 2012 1:36am UTC
    theres not one thing i like about myself. i hate everything, my voice, my appearance, my skin, my thighs, my hair, my teeth, my nose, my feet, the way i walk, the way i talk, everything. I honestly disgust myself
    
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11. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 24, 2012 1:30am UTC
    everytime I start getting better everything goes downhill again.
    
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12. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 24, 2012 1:24am UTC
    Im covered in bruises and theyre all from myself. I get really angry over the littlest things but I have noboby else to blame or even talk to so I take my anger out on myself and beat myself up until ive let all the anger out.
    
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13. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 24, 2012 1:22am UTC
    Do you know what its like to have so much pressure on you to do well at school? We dont have much money and sometimes we cant even afford to buy dinner & I know there's never gonna be enough money to pay for me to go college so the only way I can go is if I have a scholarship and its too much pressure
    
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14. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 18, 2012 11:58am UTC
    i think i cut too deep this time..
    
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15. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 8, 2012 1:09pm UTC
    so on monday I had jabs at school and I used my cardigan to cover up my arm but it slipped and the nurse saw my arm and all my cuts. She asked me where they came from and I told her It was my kitten. I got pulled out of class today and she started asking me personal questions and trying to get me to admit to it, they wrote about it in their notes and she kept trying to make me talk to her about things. I don't even know what to do anymore.
    
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16. Shewillbeloved_21
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    November 1, 2012 3:40pm UTC
    almost 5 months without cutting but i relapsed. I'm so disappointed in myself.
    
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17. Shewillbeloved_21
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    October 18, 2012 1:35pm UTC
    because I know what it feels like ,
    t o b e g g o d t o t a k e i t a l l a w a y.
    
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18. Shewillbeloved_21
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    October 18, 2012 1:31pm UTC
    she saved everyone
    but she couldn't save h e r s e l f .
    
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19. Shewillbeloved_21
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    October 18, 2012 1:28pm UTC
    Do I really have to die first for you to realise how sad I was?
    
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20. Shewillbeloved_21
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    October 18, 2012 1:26pm UTC
    A long sleeve, a fake smile and everybody thinks you're fine.
    
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