haunteddx posted a quote
June 17, 2011 10:05am UTC
I was trying not to get too attached, so I didn't fall too hard, too fast. But I realised that I fell a long time ago. & now I'm here loving you with all that I have.
haunteddx posted a quote
August 23, 2011 3:14am UTC
After all that's said and done, I still think you're amazing. → I still cherish every moment I spent with you; and every smile you brought to my face. I'll forever be thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if it had to be taken away too soon. See, you were my miracle. You were the fairytale I got to live.
to the me who was hopeless, afraid and full of doubts. burdened with worries about my future. family stress and identity crisis. friendships slipping through the cracks and a dropping weight the only source of comfort. to the me who was weak but remained strong; thank you, i love you and i'm sorry.
β stay, you're not gonna LEAVE me this ( place ) is right where you need to be & why YOUR WORDS gotta mean so much to them & THEY MEAN NOTHING TO ME?
viewed through sleep stained eyes, in a space between imagination and reality, a message was received: if you're tired or if you're having a difficult time you can come back to me anytime. you should know that.
ββββββββββββββββ β‘ Broken strings cause you play me like a violin. Shame on me for all your seven deadly sins. Had it all but you craved attention. Drowning in your own reflection. β‘ ββββββββββββββββ
the words that hurt and dug deep into my skin. they were so relentless and bold. making a home where they were not welcome. now when i see you those words surface again. as fresh as ever, they circulate in my head. round and round. down this path we've walked. apologies and faked forgiveness. perhaps i am still immature. because i can't move on. cannot accept you've changed because those words linger. you could mean well, but when you smile at me i feel as though you are mocking me. when you greet me i wonder if you enjoy torturing me like this. i always wanted to grow older and move away. this world is so big but not big enough. i wanted to move onto another life at some point. but with my luck i would still see you there. the me who was small and afraid. she hides behind the me who is cold and unapproachable. i'll reciprocate your smile and greeting. the smile won't reach my eyes, the greeting won't ever be genuine. i'm mature, i get it now. i just have to pretend like everyone else.
holding onto the hands of time and begging him to stay. tears that rarely fell are coursing down his face. a memory of a man who smiles with his teeth is fading fast. hunched posture, shaking shoulders. all it will take is time and he will be whole again. warm porridge, a hot bath, fresh pajamas. i won't take my eyes off of him. i'll tuck him in. wrinkles that were deepset are easing away. blanket rises and falls with every breath he takes. i hope he's dreaming a beautiful dream. with his eyes closed, finally i cave.
- god, it's good to see you. what's it been, nine years? - eight, since you stopped writing. - we were just kids back then. - well, he takes good care of you, i see. - yeah.
93 percent stardust we hace calcium in our bones, iron in our viens, carbon in our souls, and nitrogen in our brains. 93 percent stardust, with souls made of flames, we are all just stars that have people names. n.g