Wanna kill yourself.? Imagine this. WORTH READING.
You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later your little brother knocks on your door to tell you dinner is ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, theres an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone bla,es themselves. Your teachers they were too hard on you. Those mean, popular girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the room. Your friends.? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend.? She's in shock. She can't believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad..enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the room, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears. It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you. Everyone's crying, your little brother still doesn't understand. Your parents tell him you died. It hurts him, alot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket, then she just looses it. She cries and cries for days.
It's two years later. Everyone still feels horrible. Your best friend tried to kill herself, but didn't succeed. Your brother finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, does everything that you used to do. Your parents marriage fell apart. Your dad becomes a workaholic to distract himself, and your mom becomes depressed and lays in bed all day.
People care. You may not think they do, but they do. You choices don't just effect you. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for.
I;m here for everyone if you want to talk. I've been there...still kinda am.
dont give up.
Meany23