sometimes i wonder *
what would happen if he were to actually see all my quotes
i mean seriously it could go <  either way  > maybe he'd think
it was about some other boy. or maybe he wouldnt even read
them and forget about the whole thing. i guess that would be
the bad side. but what if he actually took the time to read them?
would he finally get how i felt and realize he felt that way too.
maybe he would get the guts to tell me how he really feels. 
now wouldnt that be perfect? but then that leads me - > to think,
should i try and [   help   him   find   ] my secret thoughts and
feelings or should i just keep playing pretend and wait for him
to magically catch on? it could go either way. but for now all i 
have left to do - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - (  is wonder  ) 

i have no idea where that
came from. 100 % mine. <3