"the weight of your absence has been so heavy, I can't remember what it feels like to breathe without gasping. there are a hundred different ways to say "I miss you" and I'm stumbling over every single one and I realized you can only write about someone so much before the only thing you can write about is the last time you saw them. They say you're only as good as the company you keep and I guess that's why I haven't been doing so well since you left me"