"Katia your father just
called," she started. "There has been an
accident."
I felt my mind race at who it
could have been. Was it Louis? Was he trying to surprise me? I
felt my heart stop at the thought and I exhaled a shaky breath.
I felt like I was going to fall over and crossed my arms over
my chest to support me. My face was blank of all expression,
acting like a mask.
"Mia was involved."
My heart stopped beating. My
breath hitched in my throat, and wave of numbness came over me.
My mind was overrun with thoughts about what had
happened.
"She was driving home in the
rain, and someone pulled out in front of
her."
I felt a lump form at the back of
my burning throat and tears starting to form in my eyes but I
ignored them. Was this my fault? Was it because I was talking
on the phone with her? The world around me started to get
blurry as tears rimmed my eyelids.
"Katia," her voice
broke as she said my name. "She didn't
survive."
I felt as if my heart was just
shattered into a million pieces. My face broke from its mask,
tears starting falling down my face. My mom walked over to me
and pulled me into her. I rested my head on her shoulder and
cried. I cried and cried. Sobs racked my body and I was barely
breathing, my throat burned as if a tiny needles were thrown
into it. My lungs were on fire, begging for oxygen I
couldn't give it.
"She died instantly,"
my mom whispered to me. "She didn't feel any
pain."
I couldn't believe it. This
wasn't real. This wasn't happening. Mia didn't die.
She was only 17- she couldn't die, she still had her life
to live. She still has to graduate, she still has to go to
prom. She still has to go to college and get a job. She has a
to marry Niall and have a family. She still... she
still....
But part of me knew deep down
this was real. Even if I didn't want it to be true, it was.
At one point my mom lead me to my bed. Somehow my stuffed dog I
got after my real dog passed ended up in my arms, and my tears
soaked its fur. I don't know how long I laid there.
Eventually the tears stopped and I was just gasping for
air.
I couldn't fall asleep. I
wanted nothing more than to fall asleep, to escape away from
reality and go to a place where Mia was still here but it never
came. I laid there awake, staring at my tan painted wall.
Memories of Mia ran through my head. Of when we first met, to
becoming best friends. All of our inside jokes, our laughs,
talking to her until 3 am about nothing. Teasing her and Niall.
Crying with her, giving her advice, making complete fools of
ourselves. This summer. There was so much I still had to tell
her, but never would have the chance.
Hours might of passed, I'm
not sure. Time was surreal. Everything seemed surreal. But at
one point my laptop started to go off. I let it, I didn't
check it. But then it started again. And again, it kept going
off.
Using all my energy I rolled over
and grabbed it. Sitting up, stuff dog still under my arm, I
opened my laptop. Louis was skying me- I forgot that he asked
if we could. A fleeing thought of how it had only been less
than an hour crossed my mind. I didn't even try to wipe
away the tears before I answered it. It didn't matter how I
looked, I didn't plan on talking very long.
"Hey Katia!" Louis
answered. He was wearing one of the fake mustaches we had
bought. I couldn't smile, all I could think was that Mia
would find it funny. She would have enjoyed hearing about
it.
"Katia whats wrong?" he
asked. He brought his face closer to the screen. I felt my
throat tighten up as I tried to choke out the two little words.
Two littles words like changed my life.
"Mia's dead."
AUTHORS NOTE: So yeah, now i'm just posting the rest of
everything I had written for the story. No one will probably
read but oh wells! And yes, I had planned to kill off Mia as
the first chapter to the last part of the story. I had it
planned for a while and actually cried when I wrote
this...
