im really lucky 
because there's one person in my life
who makes me a better person
who encourages me to do the right thing
who keeps me grounded
she knows when i need to let things go
and when things are worth fighting for
she's my mom.
and she's my favourite person in the whole world
and it sucks
because im being so selish
because i can see that she needs to go
she needs to go home
she's done so much for me
and the only thing she wants is to get away from all the unecessary pain
to go to her mom
but i just dont know what i'll do without her.

when you love someone
who is in so much pain
you do whatever is it
that will help them get better
even if it means losing part of who you are

so why cant i let her get better.
oh right
its because im just that selfish.
and im so so sorry.