inspired by tory10176.
I was born into a family with workaholic parents.
The only thing they cared about was money, not me.
They left me with a nanny, who loved and cherished me more than
anything.
But, so did her boyfriend.
He would r/pe me constantly, making me feel pain.
He'd called me useless and made me feel horrible about
myself.
I didn't understand at the time though that not every kid
had a life like mine.
It didn't feel right was Eric did to me, but what did I
know? I was 9.
It continued until I was 11, my parents fired my nanny at that
time.
After that, my parents threw me into sports, lessons, and a
million different things.They
had someone only to drive me from practice to practice.
I wasn't good though.
In fact, I was horrible at everything. I had no talent, I was
shorts and chubby.
So everyone teased me, made me feel useless
I was 13, I was destroyed.
I had one friend, my neighbor. He was 16 and the quarterback
and he was my best friend.
He always made sure I was okay and happy...
I often lied though.
One day, I went over to his house, and he had friends over.
They were all smoking pot
They let me try some, and then more.
I was happy, really happy. So I kept doing it.
I tried other things, alcohol was a fun friend of mine.
By the time I was 15, I was addicted to various drugs and
alcohol.
But, let's get back to when I was 13.
I'm not the smartest academically, I barely got by in
school.
My parents never cared though, all they cared about was that I
was passing.
which techincally I was.
But, I survived middle school with only 1 solid friend, no one
liked me.
But, I got the opportunity to change all that.
My middle school seperated to 2 high schools.
A majority of the kids went to one school, my neighborhood went
to a different school.
It would of been a fresh start with new people.
I motivated myself to lose weight that summer. I was going to
be the it girl when I get back.
I did that, I was 5'5 and only 130 pounds.
By the time I was 15, I was teasing the kids who teased me in
middle school.
But, that doesn't matter to me anymore.
I'm 16 almost 17 and I'm addicted to various drugs.
I smoke nearly a pack of cigarettes a day.
I get drunk to help me sleep at night.
I have a problem, I wish someone would notice.
I wish someone would actually love and care for me.
My neighbor?
He's currently in the hospital.
He got hit over the head at a party.
Trying to get me out of a bad situation.
He's gonna be okay, but, I'm the reason why he's
there.
I hurt the only person who ever really loved me.
I wish I could tell him how much I loved him though,
I'm in love with him though, but I'm his "little
sister."
I really wish I could tell him all this too when he gets
out,
but I don't have the guts to tell
anyone
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Victoria13 · 1 decade ago
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Wow, that was very sad to read. I hope and pray you will overcome your fears and addictions. I also hope that you will be able to say you love him and he'll feel the same way. I hope you'll be happy one day and I wish you the best of luck with the rest of your life.