In all honesty, when I was younger I would
think about suicide all the time. Not for something petty like a
break-up or anything, but the loss of my grandparents happened
when I was young, and 3 died within 1 year, a couple months
apart. I would get my knife(I collect knives) and thrust it
towards my heart, and I would only stop because I'd think of
the mess I would make for my family. and the cost of the funeral
and stuff like that. mind you i was around 9
and i was already worrying about the fact that my family was
having money problems.
usually that would help contribute to the thought of suicide but
for some reason It kept me from commiting suicide.
also commiting suicide by overdose wasn't an option because
my mother has plenty of health problems
and I didn't want to O.D. on her meds because then I would
take the meds she needs for her health problems.
there is plenty more to my story about my thoughts of
suicide,
but that's about all I feel comfortable talking about at this
current point in time.
but I guess the thing to learn here is if you ever think about
suicide,
always think about how it will affect the people around you,
don't be selfish.
