I thought I could
outsmart them
all.
I thought I could be successful.
I thought I could defy all
logic.
I thought I could rise
above
all.
I thought I could finally prove
myself.
I thought I would be first
place.
I thought I would be a winner.
I thought I would be looked on as different.
I thought I was actually worth
something.
But I
thought wrong.
I didn't outsmart
any of them.
I didn't suceed at
anything.
I didn't defy logic, I proved it
only further.
I didn't rise at all, I sunk
below
many.
I didn't prove
anything, especially not myself.
I didn't get first
place,
I became last.
I didn't become a winner, I am more than ever a loser.
I wasn't looked on as different,
only the same.
I am not
worth
anything, anything at all.
I
was proven wrong.
