i stand my ground
i keep my distance
i pretend to be involved in life
and so here i am keeping myself safe,
but i want to be truly laughing;
the kind of laugh where you bend over
unable to breath other than when
you suck in air just to choke on it more as you laugh. i want to have those silly stupid insiders where you nod your head in recognition and remembrance (no matter how stupid it is), where the other person doesnt even have to finish their sentence. and i guess i could have that if i stop playing God, trying to categorize everything and observe. i have three weeks left sk whh not go out on a limb?