I want to cry so bad but I can't, no one understands me anymore. Even I don't know what I've turned into. I want the old me back, the blonde girl who loves her friends and doesn't hate them, the girl who didn't care if she had designer clothes, the girl who didn't care what people thought of her, the girl who would raise her hand to answer a question even if she knew it was wrong, the girl who thought of boys as just friends, the girl who thought that boyfriends were cool but never wanted one, the girl who would tell her mum everything, the girl who was not afraid to cry in front of people, the girl who wasn't afraid to be herself, the girl who never got in trouble, the girl who always knew her place, the girl who tried to understand everyone even if it hurt her, the girl who didn't have enemies, the girl who thought the 'cool' kids were stupid, the girl who wanted to learn as much as she could, the girl who wanted true love to be real.


I don't know what happened but I wish I was that girl again, but if I was still her I wouldn't know what it's like to be heartbroken or what it's like to fall in love and be loved back.

If you just read all that then I love you and if you didn't I don't blame you.