venting time again. I'm starting to make myself hate music. Not because it's music but because I feel like I can't push to my dream. I can't make the music that the people want. But I won't chang myself. I'm poor. I have no help. I have barely any instruments. I have no good music software or a good computer. I can't make the things I want to make. I CAN'T SING THE WAY I WANT TO SING. I wish I could just let my self free and Sing at school but why should I do that to be shunned somemore by the redneck/preppy population. It's rather I must sing country or some gay song that I wouldn't be able to feel. My voice isn't meant for the people of West Virginia. West virginia is A Metal and Country state. I can't do it. Sometimes I just want to quit. No one has given me a good reason not too. I haven't been able to talk to anyone about anything. No one around me seems to want to hear what I have to say about music anymore. So what if my vocal range is insane, I still can't do it. So what if I apparently sing like a god. I can't do it. I can't bring my self to be shunned more by the population of my school. I've already lost many many people in my life. Is it my fault. Have I done something wrong. Many people have moved away. Others just stop talking to me. Music beats in my soul and I can't get it out. I don't know why but it saddens me to see how some of these people became famous. Nicki manaj. Justin Beiber. Rebecca Black. I know she's not famous but she atleast got a song out. I have three songs out and only 2 of them are okay. Not good enough and surely not what I had in mind. I wish I had a piano. I wish I had the talent to Make music like my inspiration has in the past. But It's oh well. I'll never stop. I'm just loosing hope in myself. I need help. I can't do it alone.