Dear no one,
I can't. I can't do it anymore. I hate my self. You just don't
understand, I try to starve myself, but I can't. My mom makes me
eat dinner, she'll notice if I don't bring my lunch to school and
Kara will notice if I don't eat it. I can't force my self to
throw up its impossible. I feel so alone. I can't tell anyone
either because they'll tell me I'm stupid, my sister think I'm
just doing it for attention. You don't don't know what it feels
like look in the mirror and gag because you think you are the
ugliest creature on earth. You don't what it feels like to be the
fat one out o your friends. You don't know what it feels like
going to the beach and not wanting to take of your shorts because
you think your thighs are huge. No boys are ever going to like a
whale like myself. I'm finished. I don't what to do. I'm falling
apart and I don't know how stop it. I just want to be beautiful.
My dad even says I'm fat. I've been called fat my whole life and
I'm finished. I can't be pretty without being skinny. Sam
probably doesn't like me because I look like a walrus.
Meghan