In exactly 3 daays I'll only have 5 months til I can kiss you, hug you & see you again. Its been a long rough path for us. A year ago, I made the biggest mistake of my life, I walked away from you & took our daughter with me. It took me 7 months to come back. I got scared. I got scared because you're sweet. You're funny. You love us, & you know how to treat us. That scared me, Im not really sure why. 3 days before you were coming to visit our daughter, you got locked up.. again. I lost it, I was mad, hurt, upset.. I felt every emotion possile. How could you do that to me? How could you do that to our precious daughter? But those feelings of anger are gone now. Now, I just miss you more then anything. I miss the nights when you held me. I miss cuddling, your huge hugs. Everything Zack.. I just miss you. Lylian misses you. Its nice to get those letters from you, & a phone call every now & then but you're not here with us. We're not even dating.. I mean not yet anyways. Were working on things, but thats the hard part.. working on things with a guy whose locked up. Zack I love you so much, to the moon&back. I know I messed up in the past.. I get that.. but Im sorry & I will do anything for you to forgive me. Theres not a day that goes by that I dont regret what I did. I just wish you were here to read this.. if only. You were my best friend.. but in time I fell in love with you.. completly head over heels in love with you. You're the father of my daughter & even though you're gone.. I know you're going to be an amazing one. We all make mistakes.. I just want you to know though that im not giving up this time. No way. Im sticking by your side through thick&thin...