This is a huge vent, when I say "you" its kind of me talking to a new friend I've made cuz its directed at him.....
Okay So the first time were supposed to hang out your 2 and a half hours late, and you were supposed to meet my mom then you blew off our original plan and brought me to a fast food place, after I told you I already ate so we got a soda. Then We went to run one errand for you that took seconds then you brought me home. Wtf?! And since then you've tried planning other things but I don't know if I want to. Then you say lets videochat, which was so much fun the other times we had, but now you give me a time and Ill be online but of course you never get online. Then I get offline, right before I go to bed I'll check one last time, even though I should be mad considering your 3 hours late, and your on. I love talking to you so I message you and you get offline. How many times has this happened? at least 3. Im so mad at you and I know the next time we talk your going to be all nice and im not going to be mad, I hate that your one of those people you can't stay mad at and how sensistive you are. Im so mad at you but I don't want you to be like whatever and not try to fix it and leave, i guess thats how Im scarred. Im scared of people leaving me, thats why im so clingy, Im scared to be alone. I don't know what to do im so mad and so hurt and I hate my life but I dont I have been maing bad choices lately for SOMEONE to noitce but no one cares, no ones noticed I've been doing drugs and drinking. Im openly admitting that. I don't know what to do. I hate lieing to people and I just hope someone is reading this and idk what to do. I dont even know why Im writing this, or if IM writing it out of anger or sadness or what. Im so lost.