I feel bad. 
All the time I see quotes where girls are saying about how they want to find the perfect guy, or how they want their crush to notice them.  Well you know what?
I have that.
I have that boy that tells me he'll love me no matter what happens.  He says he'll never leave me or hurt me.  When I say he can do better, he says that isn't possible.  He'll say the nicest things to me and when I say I don't deserve it, he tells me otherwise and says he could never be mean to me.  But that makes me realize the harsh truth.
I'm not good enough for him.
No matter what he says or does, I know I could never be good enough for him.  He wants to take me out on a date and call me his girlfriend, and I can't do it.  Because I know these things end and they fall apart and I can't lose him.  I can't accept the love he's giving me because in the end, all it will lead to is pain. And it scares me to think about it, because he is my best friend.  I would trust him with my life and all my secrets.  But the two of us would never work because I can't risk losing him.  And you know what hurts more than anything?

I can't love him back.