I so badly want to touch you, to reach out and hold you, but fear
over comes me, fear of what you might say or what you might do, I
tremble by the thought of never seeing you again so for now my
lips are sealed. Whats wrong with me? I've never felt like
this before, why am I so obsessed with you, why can't I sleep
at night. I hate that I feel this way because I know you will
never feel the same. I drink to try and numb my pain, but it only
makes it worse. reading your txts over and over again, trying to
find hidden messages, i'm driving myself crazy, I've
never been out of control like this before. Why am i going
through all this pain, and yet you're so calm, I hate being
in love with someone who will never love me back, I hate that I
love you.
