He used to be my friend

then things went wrong, and we had this huge fight where we didn't talk to each other. we didn't even acknowledge each other's existance. it was easier hating him and pretending he wasn't there instead of pretending he didn't hurt me or pretending he hadn't changed. he thinks he's done nothing wrong but everything is wrong. and he wants things to go back to the way they were. but if they did, i'll only get hurt again.
my friend is telling me i should forgive him and move on. if she knows him at all, he's upset with himself for hurting me.
problem is, i don't think i can.
it's easier for me to just do nothing. i don't have to hate him or treat him like dirt, but i can't just go back to being friends again. i'll always have a soft spot for him and that means i'm just more vulnerable to getting hurt again and again.
i let my anger out, and i let it go, and now they say it's time i forgive him.
but. i just can't.
at least,

not yet.