i convinced myself that i like this guy just because i had a ton of things in common with him. i told my one friend who lives on the other side of the country all about him and whenever he said something to me. i like freaked out whenever he talked to me and wanted him to ask me to homecoming. okay but here's the thing...he is really weird. like not funny kind of weird but a kind of weird that weirds me out. i don't know why i liked him because now i'm like urhmm... but i think he like me. but it's weird because whenever anyone brings up his name two of my friends like die laughing and so i couldnt tell them i liked him because i was embarassed. but now i don't like him anymore. and there's this other guy who is my friend and he was dancing with my group of friends at homecoming and they were so awkward about it like they were laughing at each other and making faces and then when a slow song came on they were like omg go find ___! and i was like okay stop. honestly this other guy is my friend and i dont want to start liking hom because that would be annoying ya know? i decided i need to get to know him better first. but now my friends are like weird about him because he was dancing with us, mainly because he knew me. (none of my friends have classes with him) and one of my friends has a boyfriend so you would think she wouldnt be so weird about it but she is and idk they just bug me because why do you have to make fun of all of the guys. there are a few hot guys but im not the prettiest so why would they like me? and i dont talk to them. and most of them are jerks. and i'd be fine with going out with a normal nice guy if they like me but my friends make it impossible like sometimes i wish i had different friends. i am fifteen years old as of sunday and i am sick and tired of being lonely. my friends ruined it for me in high school because now i like cant talk to boys so im determined to do something about it this year. idk this is just because i cant tell any of them this to their face but if someone reads this, then i hope it makes sense. and maybe someone out there can relate. and if anyone has any advice, feel free to give it <3