I knoW I'm stupid 
i know I messed up
big time
i should had listened when I had the chance
but I was so insecure I just dident listin
i always felt like I was never enought
qnd that's where I messed up
she doesent know with out her
I would be dead
no joke
unforently my cusin dident have someone like her
when he took his life at 15 
less then a month ago
i just...
want the chance to do it right
but I'm so stupid
im " quirky the quier"
and I let it change who I was
now I miss her like crazy and just want to fricken die <\3