I'm not
okay. I'm not fine. My wall is cracking and it's about to
fall apart. Each time I see him I get another crack. I don't
want it to fall, it has protected me from so many things. I'm
tired of pretending to be okay when I'm not. I'm tired of
wearing a fake smile when all I want to do is cry. I'm tired
of acting like it doesnt bother me that he is with her now when
it could be me. I'm tired of being the strong one; the one
that is okay with being alone. Because im not. It's all a
charade. All I want is for him to hold me in his arms like he
used to and he tell me he still loves me. I would do anything for
him at this point. I'm tired of this exhausting person
I've been trying to be. I'm not as strong as I let on.
Well at least now anymore, not when it comes to loving
him. ♥
