IT HURTS SO MUCH
TO SEE YOU LIKE THAT. IT BREAKS MY HEART. WELL NO.
IT BROKE MY HEART. I DIDN'T MEAN THOSE
WORDS. NOT AT ALL. BUT YOU WONT ACCEPT THAT. YOU
HATE ME TOO MUCH TO EVER DO THAT. YOU MAKE PEOPLE
DISLIKE YOU THEN YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT
YOUR 'HATERS'. IT'S ALL SO STUPID AND
CONFUSING. I ADMIT, SOME DAYS I MISS YOU, A LOT.
SOMETIMES I TALK ABOUT MEMORIES LIKE WE'RE STILL
FRIENDS. I IMAGINE WHAT YOU USED TO BE LIKE. THE
GIRL I LOVED BUT ENVIED. I JUST THOUGHT
WE WEREN'T FRIENDS. WERE NEVER GONNA BE FRIENDS
AGAIN. NOW THERE IS MUTUAL HATE. IT KILLS ME, WHAT
YOU'VE BECOME BUT I CAN'T CHANGE YOU.
NO ONE REALLY CAN. BUT THIS IS THE CLOSEST THING TO
AN HONEST APOLOGY I COULD THINK OF. I MISS YOU, THE
OLD YOU. THE NEW ONE IS AWFUL. I'M REALLY
GETTING SICK OF TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE. I KNOW
I'LL DO IT AGAIN. I HAVE A FEELING
YOU WON'T READ THIS, OR EVER OR FORGIVE ME IN
ANY WAY. I JUST NEEDED IT OFF MY CHEST. I DON'T
LIKE THAT I HURT YOU SO BAD. DON'T LIKE IT AT
ALL. BUT WHO YOU'VE BECOME, I HATE THAT THE
MOST OF ALL. THIS MAY NOT SOUND LIKE ONE, BUT IT IS,
IT'S THE CLOSEST THING TO AN APOLOGY FROM ME.
IT'S ALL I FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THESE DAYS. I MISS
YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK. I ALWAYS WILL. JUST KNOW I NEVER
MEANT TO HURT YOU. EVER. BUT IT HAPPENED. I ACCEPT THAT. IT
WAS MY MISTAKE. NOT YOURS. I'M SORRY TO PLUTO AND BACK AS
MANY TIMES AS THERE ARE GRAINS OF SAND. I'M SO SO SO
SORRY.
