My life is just
life. It's boring
and
uneventful,
nothing out of the ordinary. In fact, I've come to realize
that it's SO
boring and ordinary, that I CREATE
problems.
I start arguments. I make myself sad
and
depressed.
I make myself do stupid things just to have something new
happen.
I do these things so much that I feel like I've become
the problem.
I've become peoples issues and conflicts.
I've become a giant
nuisance to the world around
me. I feel so minuscule and
pathetic. I don't feel
like a
girl anymore.
I don't even feel
like a person anymore.
Just a problem. Just
one more problem
that everyone has to
put up with and go through everyday,
just another
obstacle.
The burden on
someones shoulder.
Why didn't I
realize this sooner?
Oh, that's right. Because if I would have realized it sooner,
I wouldn't have to feel this way.
I would have stopped being the problem.
But since I didn't, I've just created this
huge mess
with myself.
This raging war
in my
head.
