Here I go again, not feelin'
like myself. I'm only sixteen, I shouldn't have to feel so
much pressure. My parents are struggling so much with paying their
bills. My sports for school cost so much money, but they keep
saying that they dont want me to give up what I love. I'm
constantly thinking about how i'm going to pay for this or pay
for that. How I can get money to do things with my friends. I cant
afford what most families can. I know it could be worse and i'm
so sorry that i'm being selfish but when i'm surrounded by
people who get what they want all the time and can afford so many
things, it makes me feel so low. Every night before I go to sleep,
I get this sick to my stomache feeling, I worry about money, my
family.. Just things I, a sixteen year old girl shouldn't have
to worry about. I just wish things could have been different.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family to pieces but I often
wonder what it's like to belong to another family.. I just hate
how stressful it is being apart of this family. And our money
problem is something I would never tell anyone, so i'm
constantly making up lies and excuses.. Its frustrating because
people don't understand. & by being in that situation,
i've really learned why people say: "don't judge
anyone, you have no idea what they're going through" So,
i'm sorry to those who i've mistreated, who i've
judged, I really am sorry. Also, I am sorry if you read this and
thing i'm selfish, because honestly I really cant help what I
feel.
