Sooo... I
haven;t vented in a long long time,
so
here goes
nothing;
Recently, I
visited Illinois (My hometown, woo) and I saw one of my old
family friends, (almost everyday I might add,
not even close to complaing), and let me tell you. A lot of the
guys in Florida by me are not very smart, and not very
attractive I may add, but Ben, is so different. Ben's always
been amazing, I've loved him since we were little kids,
but
now I feel so self- consious (more than usual) around him.
He's smart, and funny, and tall and cute, and perfect. We
were up there for 10ish days, and every night we talked for at
least 3 hours, if not more. His niece and nephew came in
for 4th of July, and I wanted to cry. He's so good with them,
(their almost 3 and just turned 1), and we even got to
babysit for an hour or so. One night, a couple days before 4th of
July, he had found out that I cut before. He wasn't
mad, or creeped out, or upset, or awkward about it. He was calm,
and patient, and he tried to pry it out of me. No, I
didn't tell him, that night. We wrote letters, and I told him
then. God I miss him, but there is a high part of this... He
said
(though I know it won't work) that he would try to turn
around my self confidece. Him calling me beatiful makes me
want to cry, punch him, and hug him all at the same time. So
yeah, totally not what I wanted to vent about, but
if you read it I love you.<3 .
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saw this at
