After competing for 8 hours that day and being so far away from you it took every peice of strength i had to not get on that plane and come home but you will never understand how much your voice brought me to tears just hearing you say "you go get that gold i love you baby girl" made me stay and finish the week strong and though i never told you i was crying on the phone and you didnt hear me i knew you knew i was in an unframiliar place and needed you and you were there for me but what i dont understand is that now that i am going on a family vacation for the same amount of time instead of going to a national competiton and competing for 8 hours a day you cant be there for me and instead tell me im not trusted and your gonna be a jerk to me all week what dont you understand being away for pleasure or for a sport isnt differnt i still miss you that same </3