Kinda
long,
but
I just to need
get
this out.
So
there's this guy... (how typical I know) and I
love him. I love everything about him. I
love his face. I love his voice. I love our conversations,
even when they get awkward.
I'm just happy to be talking to him. I feel complete
whenever we are together. But the
thing is, the cycle of our relationship is: Strangers.
Friends. More than friends. Repeat.
It kills me that one day things can be going oh-so perfect
and dandy, but the next day we
will just stop speaking to each other. He'll get bored
with me and make up some stupid
excuse week, even months later why we haven't talked in
such a long time and I just take it. I
can't even count how many times this has happened, but
the things that gets me every time
is how I let it happen. During the time we stop speaking to
each other, I break down and cry
myself to sleep every night. Then there will eventually
come a night when I'm out of tears, but
not out of emotion and I tell myself I just can't keep
living like this anymore and over weeks
and months I don't totally and completely get over
him, but I learn to live without him and
he's
not the first thought in my head when I wake up anymore and
things just slowly start getting
better in my life all around. That's when it happens.
It's like he knows I stop thinking about
him and that's when he decides it's a great
idea to pop into my life again and then everything
goes down-hill from there. I take him back. Every. Single.
Time. My head tells me to ignore
him and give him a taste of his own medicine, but my heart
tells me maybe this time it won't
happen. Maybe this time he'll stay. Maybe this time
there won't be tears. Maybe this time it will
be different. The point of this vent is that this cycle has
repeated itself again and I needed
to get this out, it's just been burdening me alot and I
need help. Please. Someone. Anyone.
Help me out. I need some advice and moral support. I
don't know what to do anymore. To
anyone who read this entire thing, I am eternally
grateful to you and I love you all so
much!!
♥
12 faves · 4 comments · Jun 1, 2012 2:49pm
yanizella567
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1 decade ago
In this type of situation, your only answer would be to talk to him and tell him everything. Depending on how he reacts to the information you tell him, you can decided if you want to continue in this type of relationship or not. Usually, when someone is in this type of relationship, it is because that person has a lot of things they want to get of their chest, as well as the fact that he/she wishes to save the relationship. I hope that things work out for you. If you need someone to talk to, I am here for you as well.
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ed157
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1 decade ago
5 words. tell him how you feel!. if he loves u back, he will totally understand. if he gets all weird and immature about it. well then, u dont deserve him and he is just an idiot. trust me , i bet there are loads of guys wanting to be with u .<3 <3 this is common hunni xox
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Maddie_8
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1 decade ago
I know exactly what you mean the same thing happens to me. Im here if you need to talk
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NamesZane11 · 1 decade ago
Really the only thing you can do is tell him how you feel. If he doesnt agree, leave him behind. You dont deserve to be hurt like that. your beautiful and young. Just remember that.
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