"it's like..
you know that it's coming, right? but when it actually
happens, well, nothing could have prepared you for it. it hurts,
so, so much more."
there was a little part
of you that hoped everything would go back to how it was, and
finally seeing him with her? it's like, wow. reality check
dumbas.s. you forgot he doesn't care. &then, you secretly
wish that it'll end, soon. but you think of her, and how that
could be you. and him, you want nothing more than for him to be
happy, right? that's all that matters. so you just suck it up
every time you see him holding her in the same way he used to do
to you and ignore the fact that you miss it so much it hurts.
it's all you can do anymore.
