I have the absolute best boyfriend in this world, I promise.

I love him with everything I have. But for some reason, I just keep messing it up with my stupid mistakes.
I hate it. He doesn't deserve any of this. Nobody, including me, would've ever imagined it to be like this.
It seems like he would be the one to mess it up, & make the mistakes. But he heasn't, & I have. TWICE.
I need to learn the concept of saying 'no.' I need to think about him, not myself. If I lost him, it would kill me.
I need to just STOP. I don't intend on doing things to hurt him, but somehow, it keeps happening. I know he loves me, or he wouldn't stay with me through all this. Most people always blame the guys, but it's not him this time. He treats me like a princess, & loves me with everything he has.
It's me that needs to get my stuff straight.