Betrayal
thats the first thing I felt which is ludicrous. For there to be betrayal, there would have to been trust
-hunger games

I have this as a qoute because this is how I feel... A girl that I hated but pretended to be best friends with stole my man. He asked her out even though he knew how I felt and thought I actually liked her as a friend. Now I am forced to fake a smile and laugh and be nice while I am around them. They know its hurting me... I told them I started to cut but they still do it. Is this some sick game there playing on me? Are they trying to hurt me? Is she trying to make me jealous? Did someone leak my secret that I never liked her and that I think she is a horrible person? I'm sure no one will read this but I truely need help. I loved him, I love him. Now he is only hanging with me because I hang with her. He said we are friends but are we really? I have so many trust issuse with everybody. He said he liked me but then he also said he never liked her. I honestly and done with them. I had a perfect life until I met him... So much heartbreak has been caused because of him. I want to be done with them but I don't want to have waisted my life on them. Most of my heart still belongs to him. I want to forget them but how can I? I feel like the world would be better off without me, this is the same feeling I had when I tried to drown myself. I know I am so young but this is what society has made out of people. Everyone starts out bad and ends up wise. I am not ready to let go...