since I was twelve I've wanted to get kidnapped
not because I want to get rapped or anything
but because I want to see if my family would care
I want to know that there is something more stressful than home
I want to be even more overwhelmed so home seems like heaven
I want to truly feel worthless without being able to give up
just so I can feel normal at home
just so I don't feel this depressed all the time

yeah, I'm that f*cked up in the head
go ahead, make fun of me for it