I
am very much typically 100% of the problem.I have pride issues. I
am overly insecure, to egotistic to ever apologize, and am so
afraid of things being right in my life that I will purposely mess
them up so I won't get hurt.I can never accept that sometimes
life is good, that some people are genuinely good, and that little
moments can be good because I get to much anxiety that everything
will fall apart in seconds and that I'll be left alone. I have
wrecked and damaged perfect relationships because I'm a mess
that I don't want to put on other people's shoulders, and I
wish I could come to terms with the idea that life is never easy
and life will never be fair, so I can start building back what
I've destroyed with most of the people around me. Instead
I smile through everything, put on the could-care-less-what you do
or say-act and pretend to be as strong and indestructible as
humanly possible as to avoid people and their jugements, questions
and concerns. But I am not strong. I am slowly, secretly, but very
effectively,
breaking.
-Krystal Underwood
I am very much typically 100% of the problem.I have pride issues.
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Mar 22, 2012 8:20pm
