The one guy I liked, and actually cared about, told me he didn't like me more than a friend. He said that I was cool and nice. And I was just his friend. Im not good enough for anyone. And I cant even be myself because Im too busy being what everyone else wants me to be. Nobody knows I was gonna die when I was 2 years old. Nobody knows the stuff I have been through. Losing my best friend who I knew for about a week and we knew everything about each other. We went through alot together through freshman year. Having boyfriends, controling parents. Having a friend who only see's you as the girl I spend time with when my best friend is out of town and my mom wont let me see my boyfriend friend. I was only 10 years old when I was first bullied. I came home crying in sixth grade because my teacher really hated me. Not being able to know my real grandparents. Loosing them all to death. Visiting your family only to be the only teenager. Everyone thinking my nephew is my son at the store. Going to a place where everyone welcomes you, only to be looked down apon. Being the shortest in a tall family. Getting mistaken to be younger or older. When I walk into a room and people just look at me, and I know they talk about me behind my back. I want to be perfect for everyone's liking but I can't that's not me anymore! I don't remember anybody coming up to my door step and asking me out. All I want is a guy, who likes me for me. Not for what I have. I'm sorry Im not perfect.