IwishIwasn'tsuchanastypersonontheinside.
IwishIcouldbeniceandpureforonce.
EveryonetellsmeI'mperfectlyfine,
andthatI'msuchasweetheart,
andthatI'mnice,andcouldneverbecruel..
Therealityis,somanythoughtsIhavearecruel.
Iwouldn'tbreakupwithsomeone,evenifIdidn'tlovethem.
Ilaughatcrudejokes,thatshouldn'tbelaughedat.
Inreality,I'mnotthissweetheartmyboyfriendsees.
I'mthisself-harming,suicidal,cruel,uglymonster...
He'llneverseethatsideofme,though...
