Last night, there was a candle light vigil held at my school for my principal last year who passed away.
After the basketball game, we watched a video and lit the candles, then we had a silent walk out to the track. I walked with a big group of my friends, and the guy I like, Ryan, happened to be one of them. Everyone gathered on the football field, and I ended up standing next to Ryan. We were in the front. There were some speakers sharing memories and stuff, all representing different groups. Tyler, who wrote a poem, and Alex, representing the present students, are like my brothers. They both live on my street and I've always been really close to them. Then, David, my cousin who I'm really close to, represented the alumni of our school. They all cried. Watching 3 guys who I'm super close to cry like that, hurt. On top of being in a sad environment in the first place. By the time Alex started crying, I broke down. Ryan looked at me and saw that I was crying, and pulled me in and held me. With only one arm, because the other was holding a candle, but still. Every time he heard me start to cry again (there was a lot of comedic relief in their speeches), he'd pull me closer, and rub my arm. I pulled away because I got some tears on his hoodie, and I said sorry and he looked at me and shook his head and said "I don't care" and pulled me in tighter. Then we had a silent walk around the track and he kept his arm around me the whole time. Even though our friend Matt was crying, and I stopped. Matt obviously needed him wayy more then I did, he still stuck with me. After the silent walk, me, Ryan, Matt, and our friend Trevor stood in a group for a bit. Ryan hugged Matt finally and he started crying, so I hugged him again. Then Matt left so me Ryan and Trevor were all just standing in a circle, and I started crying again because I saw my best friend Katy and I hugged her and we cried, so Trevor hugged me, but then he had to leave. So it was just me and Ryan standing there for a little bit. I was still crying and he was staring at me for a bit waiting for me to put my hand down because I was biting my nails. He hugged me for a really long time and he started crying again. Then we talked for a little bit, and he did everything he could to make me laugh. Then he had to leave because he had to drive someone else home. He said goodbye and I hugged him again and thanked him because he was my support system all night. Before he left, he was like "I'll text you. Are you going to be okay?" and I said yeah and stuff and he asked me if I was okay like 10 more times before he left. Then he hugged me one more time and we said goodbye and stuff. Then later we were texting and he was telling me how glad he was that he hugged me and that he could be there for me. He's such a sweetheart and I'm so glad I have a friend like him<3.