To be completely honest
with everyone and anyone who's reading this,
I've never shed a tear, From losing a friend to someone else,
From losing him, Having a heartbreak, being broken up with,
Nothing.
I want to cry, believe me I do.
I guess strong people don't cry.
But when it comes to what I'm putting up with, I should be
crying. My tears just won't come out and it's killing
me.
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On the walk to the bus after school I didn't talk to anyone,
Not even my bestfriend, Who was right next to me. I .would. speak.
at. all. For the lasat 3 hours of the day. I was completely
silent.
I almost cried on the way home after getting off the bus.
I came inside and went straight to my room. My mom asked me how
school was going and at that moment. That short moment. I almost
bursted into tears but I managed to hold it in. I ask my self now
why I did that. I don't know really.
I finally realized It isn't people that are hurting me, or
haters, nothing like that. Its school. I don't Understand
school like other people do. They get it so easy and I. just
cant. I try so hard. The highest grade I can get in the
easiet clas,s which is gym, I got a B+, which I call a 3.5.
I just don't understand why I'm like this. Its so hard for
me. I've broken down in math in sixth grade before. Thats how
hard it was for me. I get so frustrated I cry. I'm scared to
take test's. I'm scared to read aloud cause I know I'll
mess up. I'm scared to present a project cause people WILL make
fun of me cause I get red in the face whenever I present.
I guess what you would call me is stupid. Yeah I have 10th
grade reading level in 8th grade. But that doesn't mean I'm
smart with math or anything else.
Crying for me is just hard. I don't cry and I don't know
why.
I couldnt cry.
I can't cry.
And I won't cry.
To be completely honest with everyone and anyone who's reading
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Feb 18, 2012 12:01am
