Dear Josh,
So today I found out I was pregnant, with your child. And you're not here. You're gone. I miss you. We miss you... I'm sure of it. I can't even believe it at all. I want you back so much. You were my everything, my life. I remember when we were eating out for your birthday with your parents and mine, and you said, "We want to get married." They were quiet for a minute, and almost on cue they all said, "After college, right?" Your face lit up and you laughed. "Of course!" Then they began to smile, and congratulated us. I loved that day. Our parents are the best, aren't they? Your mom came with me and my mom to the doctors today. She was so sweet and so supportive, and afterwards once we found out, she said, "Josh wishes he was here..." and all I could say was, "I know." You do want to be here, don't you? I hope so, 'cause I sure wish you were here...