i'm not gonna sit there and pretend that what
you say doesn't hurt me at all. because it does. it kills me. 
I TRIED TO BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU.
then when you talked to me about her I sat there with a smile on my face.
deep down? i just wanted to let every tear come running down my face
each word you said about her, was just another piece of my heart gone.

and this time i'm not okay.