ICan'tHelpIt
Being dead is a strange
feeling.
Oh, I know what you're thinking.
When you're dead, you can't feel it. Yes, I know
that, and I guess technically I'm not dead. But I feel dead.
Sometimes, I even pretend I'm dead. Kind of morbid, I know,
but it helps me cope. I'll just lie in the middle of the
floor, motionlessly.
I can also tell what you're thinking RIGHT NOW.
Wow. She's so wierd.
Well, guess what. I'm not emo, or punk, or gothic.
I'm a high school girl.
People get jealous of me.
Apparently, I have "everything".
I have long brown hair, blue eyes, "perfect"
body, friends(sort of), and a happy exterior.
I draw people in. I'm always surrounded by people. Fake
people, to be exact. They're just interested in getting to be
in the "in-crowd".
I am NOT cool. I wouldn't want to be friends with
me.
But enough about me. That junk up^ there is really boring.
I wouldn't want to read it, so don't feel bad if you
didn't really. If you just skimmed it. You know, like the way
you read your History textbook. Sorta reading, but mostly staring
at your hot History teacher. Anyways..
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"Oh, HEY Lexi!"
"I love your jacket, Alexa."
"Wow, your hair looks so nice that way! You HAVE to
tell me how you do that, Lex!"
I glance at the ground as I pass the stares. I've
always hated having people stare at me. So this whole,
Alexa-is-so-cool deelio going on here, really bugs me. I'd
rather be behind the scenes.
Which is why I always used to be the loner. I was happy
that way. No one bugged me.
Buuuuut, then Cory came along.
Cory's the super cool, tall, strong,
hot, jock senior. Everyone likes Cory. Well,
except for the "nerdy" guys. Cory sort of makes fun of
them.
Cory also happens to be my boyfriend.
I think you understand now how this whole thing is making
me crazy.
All I did was start dating this guy. It's not like I
saved a kid from choking or pulled a puppy out of a sewer hole.
Cause I didn't. All I did was go to the movies with some
dude.
Like seriously.
"Heyyyyyy Alexa! What's up?!" Ella jumped up
and down as she raced to catch up with me.
"Not much," I answered, short and sweet. I
actually really don't like Ella. She's the kind of girl I
avoided.
Ella is my "best friend". Don't believe that
whole "best friend" word-thing. She's not.
She's awful. And she always hated me. UNTIL I started dating
Cory. And BAM! We're best friends..
"You look so hawt today, galfriend! I jealous,"
Ella flips her pin-straight blond hair and digs in her purse for
some sticky glitter lipgloss. Ew.
"Ha, thanks. You too." I roll my eyes as she
stares lovingly into her pocket mirror. How artificial can
you get?
"Why thank yaa! You are just too adorable. Waow. Did
you SEE what Melissa was wearing today? Uhh, hello?! Why on earth
would you wear a dress that goes to the ground? And that yellow
TOTALLY washes her out. There is something off about her. I think
she's hiding something. She's so ugly. I wish she would
learn about the miracle of makeup. What, does she live in a
cave?" Ella talks louder than she should be, and tilts her
head towards Melissa, who is standing a few feet away and can
obviously hear every word.
"I don't know," I mumble into my locker.
As Ella continues to talk endlessly and pointlessly, Cory
walks through the hallway.
I swear, EVERYONE gets quiet. Including Ella. They all turn
to Cory, then to me, then back to Cory.
Yeah, I guess he's "breathtaking" or
whatever. I don't know. I guess I kind of like him, but,
I'm not in love with him like the rest of the school. I
can't help it. He's not really my type.
"Hey babe," Cory grabs me by my waist and pulls
me towards him.
"Hi, what's up?" I try to push myself away
just a little bit.
"Just thinking 'bout how bad I want you right
now." He pulls me even closer.
"Haha, yeah, me too.." I push away again,
and start to walk away.
He pulls my shoulder and I stumble backwards into a
janitor's closet with him, which isn't that unusual
for couples to do in between classes. But I'm not that kind
of girl. "I think you need to take off that dress,
baby," He whispers in my ear so only I can hear him.
"I," I struggle to get away from him, but
he's too strong. "I, uh, I need to get to
class."
"You know what I want. I've waited too long
already." He pushes me against the wall.
"No," I duck around him and grasp the doorknob.
"I need to go!"
"WHY?!" Cory yells, and then lowers his voice,
which makes it scarier. "God. Just stop this teasing thing.
I just want YOU. Not the teasing."
I try desperately to turn the doorknob, but you grabs my
arm. And it hurts.
Then, it happened.
The first time he hit me.
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5 faves · 2 comments · Jan 25, 2012 8:44pm
thepsiloveyouseries
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1 decade ago
thats like really, really good. it deserves to be a top quote.
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donteventhinkaboutit · 1 decade ago
this story is really good i think you should keep writing!!!
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