****venting****

alright, so theres this kid... There is two sides to him; the sweet, caring, good guy side. and then theres the a-hole side. Of course i fell in love with the good guy in him and now i realize hes nothing but an a-hole. I sit here still in love with the amazing person i thought he was and he just isnt the guy i should be with, I'm kinda really in love with this kid but everyone tells me that they feel bad when he treats me like trash. im just so confused. sometimes i want to punch the kid so hard in his face and then 5 minutes later, im totally in love with him and would make out with him if i saw him. im not sure what i should do anymore because part of me cant let go of the good guy i fell in love with but then another part of me says get rid of him he is an a-hole. its like falling head over heels for someone that doesnt exist because he isnt who i thought he was... idk, i just dont know.