I wish I could find the perfect guy for once in my life, & I can actually be happy. Other than that, I love life. I have a great family, amazing friends, I go to a school that is perfect for me, I have everything I want, except for one thing, him.

I had my chance with him, but I screwed up, big time. I don't think he feels the same about me anymore as I feel about him. I know I love him, I know it. But the more I think about it, I think maybe, just maybe, that I'm in love with him. He doesn't know it, nor would he care. We hardly talk anymore. He used to walk me to my classes, yet his were on the other side of the school. He would hug me before classes, with all of his friends watching, and my friends watching, yet he wouldn't care what other people thought. He would hug me & never let go, & I absolutely loved it. As I would walk into my classroom, & he walked off, he would yell, "I love you" down the hallway, & never forgot to. He never cared what other people thought when he said that. He said it because he meant it, & that's all that mattered to him.
That's the thing. Meant & mattered are in past tense, as in, not anymore. He doesn't even look at me anymore. I ruined things between us, & can never fix them. If I could do anything, that is what I want the most. I want to go back, & never screw things up between us. All I really want, is a second chance...<3


Why can't he see that?