I AM SCARED.
Sarah and Megan. I am sorry I haven't told you to your faces, or at school.. I have just been scared of people finding out.. I know I said I would never ever do that in my life.. but it just happened. I wish I could take it back. I wish I could take back that day. I wish I could take back ~~cutting~~ myself. The stress of everything going on just got to me.. I am scared that I could even do that to myself. I don't plan on telling my mom, because I am already going through stuff with her. And plus, I am NEVER going to do it again. It was a mistake that I am going to remember for the REST OF MY LIFE. Please don't freak out when you see this.. I think I am already going to go to counseling.. if I do, I am going to open up to them, and tell them my story. My story of why I did it to myself, Why I was bulimic, and Why I even tried cutting.. I am making myself a whole new person. I am turning my life back around so that I don't have to hide anything, so that I can tell my mom anything, so that I don't have to feel guilty anymore. I am sorry for hurting myself. I wish I never did. I wish it never happened. I wish I never went through anything like this. I am going to tell my mom that I want to go to counseling. I am going to tell her that I think it would help me alot.
I know this is going to make you worry about me, but there is no need. I know that where I am in life is not where I want to be, I am turning myself back around.
But when I cut, It was only a few times, It wasn't deep or anything, It just looks like I fell.
Please don't worry though.
I love you guys, please try to understand. I wish I never did it. I wish I could take back that night. I wish I could take everything back..
I'm sorry.

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I AM SCARED. Sarah and Megan. I am sorry I haven't told you

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ShortStuff16 · 1 decade ago
Please... Just promise me you won't ever do that again. It already happened so no taking it back now but please never ever EVER hurt yourself in ANY way EVER again... That counts making yourself throw up... I'm getting really scared and worried for you Rae, please don't ever do anything again. Like Sarah said, if you need help, don't turn to the blade or the toilet... Talk to us. Please...
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AlwaysandFerrever · 1 decade ago
There is litterally no need to cut yourself. You haven't talked to me about anything and you need to start opening up again. It's terrible that I had to find out this way, and I want you to talk to Megan and I again. You have to. If you take it back you won't ever do it again. If you do, I have to tell mom, your mom, and they will sit down and talk to you. I know that you don't want that to happen. I love you and I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore.
<3
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xNeverForgetx · 1 decade ago
I forgot to add that it was my first time doing that.. EVER.
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xNeverForgetx · 1 decade ago
I know this is no way for you guys to find out, and I am sorry. It happened tuesday night. It shouldn't of even happened. I am sorry!!
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