i want to be 110 pounds ,
i know it's outrageous ,
I know it's stupid.
i know it's highly impossible .
I know it's stupid that i care so much about a number .
i know that i shouldn't torture myself with
thinsperation photos telling myself ,
well maybe if you didn't have this or that you'd look
like that sooner .
Then i go to the mirror .
And stare at someone i don't want to look at.
Sometimes it doesn't feel like im looking at myself in the
mirror .
like its someone else.
I sabotage myself so often .
I eat when i get upset .
I eat ALOT.
Too Much.
I gain weight too easily .
I hate myself for it .
He says he'd love me no matter what it says ,
We both know thats a lie .
I know he'd like me skinnier.
So Would I .
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