A letter i may send to him

Dear the boy who made me see,think and work diffrently,

You know it was never love at first sight,you werent someone i had liked from such an early age.I never realised that you were in my other class till Year 4.
But you still made me believe that love could last,and even if you don't know it, Boy I love you,so very, very much. Maybe it isn't love,Maybe it's just a teen thing,feeling even but you just make me not care.It sounds like im jabering on and on and on.
But i feel the most painful me about me liking you,is that you could never know.If i went up to you and confessed,like people have told me to, then i would have selfishly broken a beutifully nurtured freindship.And who would want that? So remember if i do drop hints,make you feel awkward,make you laugh,i just hope you would never find out

From a girl who is so desperately finding a way to dull the pain