Let me get this out before i explode

My life has been a hell hole that ended almost a year ago but still comes back up. In 6th grade I had nejbors who were in foster care who i thought were my best friends but later it turned out they hated me, anyway they were moving and my family felt really bad. So we became a foster home just for them. 1 moved in 4 days till christmas. Her name was the same as mine and she was 5 day older than me! Yes it was really confussing in my house. Anyway things were good i mean we fought a little not much she theated to leave twice but then she took it back. Then her other too sisters moved in April 2007there names were Jasmin and Cathy.  Then my life turned to hell. Almost everyday i was told i was ugly,stupid ( oh by the way im dysflexic so... oh and adhd and panic disorder and yea thats it), i'm untalented, im lesbian, no one will ever love me, i have no friends, every one hates me, ect. then there was my family. I was pretty sure my family like the sister trio way better than me. In Augest 2007 Cathy moved out and it was down to 2. It was okay still getting told all the names and stuff up above with a little variation. Then a little later like 2 years and i was babysitting these two little angles when i get this stange text from my dad "Its not your fault everything will be okay1" I was so confussed. I get home and everyone was crying i was really lost. Thats when my mom told me the one with the same name as me was moving . I was devistated! I cried and cried i ran to my nejbors who durring that time was like my secound family and told them, I text my friend and vented for hours.  I did anything to stay out of the house for hours i went home and didnt talk to her. She left, and i blamed me. When she left she told everyone how horrible my family is and a bunch of crap that isnt true. About a year went by. 2 mounths went by and all of a sudden the same named one called saying she wanted to come back. Me and her sister didnt want her back on christmas. So she didnt wanna move back anymore and told everyone how meann and nasty i was and she blamed me! I won't lie it was hard. Then stupidly she called again in june saying she wanted to move back, so we let her. Life got hard again we all fought, i got called names, the called my austic brother stupid once... i went off. I stated gooing off once in a blue moon when there was a major fight. Then Jasmin desided she wanted move. that was expected, she was 18 so it was okay. she still comes over alot. Two weeks later the other one, the one with the same name, desciede to leave too. I was like wow what every leave now! She did. then everything got better until she wrote on my best friends wall  on facebook how im a liar and no one likes me and im too ugly. I was in hell week of my school musical 1st night. I started to cry. All my friends helped me thought it. I didnt talk to her. Then something else happened when she told me again on facebook i had no friend s im ugly, ect.. so finally im not talking to her. It was hard though i looked at them like sisters and they hated me. My nejbor hood now doesnt talk to me much because they chose the one with the same name over me. So its still hard. I got friends who are always tehre for me and would do anything for me and that i would do anything for. Beileve it or not this is not even half the story of my life.but thats were.



THANKS FOR GIVING ME A PLACE TO VENT GUYS :D