SHE'S BROKEN
Chapter 4

I woke up the next morning quickly going to the bathroom before Jessie could see me. I couldn't let her see the tear stains down my face. Of course I have no worries about if she heard me or not, I have learned to cry silently. I got to my sink and looked into the mirror. I look pathetic. Jess is right, no guy will ever want me, i'm just that girl to flirt with when you're bored. No one would ever want the pathetic little Aubrie. I washed my face, brushed my teeth and put my hair into a messy bun at the top of my head. No point in trying to look acceptable, Jessie already thinks so low of me.

I walked back into my room and noticed Jess was still sleeping. I slowly backed right back out of room and headed down stairs. I found my mom asleep on the couch, glasses half on her head and book in hand. I quickly tip-toed by her into the kitchen. I sat down at my table, stareing out the window.

Did guys just see me as a flirt? Someone they would never date? Why am I that pathetic. My stupid skinny nose. The stupid "cat whiskers" that show up when I smile. My horrible hair, the frizzy wavyness. Oh and I can't forget about how fat I am. I'm just so stupid to ever think that a guy would ever want this. They would have to be stupid. Or blind...or both.

"BEEP BEEP BEEP!" My phone screamed rather loudly at me, interrupting my thoughts. I looked down to see a text from Adam.

"Morning Aubs. What did you need help with last night? My phone died and I just got the chance to charge it."

"morning. And it was nothing. Don't even worry about it." I replied not wanting to explain the situation to Adam, regretting that I texted him last night.

"You sure Aubrie? I know you, and you don't just text 'help' if its not important." Adam quickly replied back to my text.

"yeah i'm sure. I'd tell you if it was important. i figured out what i needed help with. i promise" I texted back, hoping to convince him so he would leave the subject be.

"Alright aubrie, whatever you say" He answered back, obviously not believing what i said but getting the hint to drop it.

Now you see I love that about Adam, he gets my hints and knows when to drop the subject. He knows when not to push me, but sometimes i wish he would, i wish he would annoy it out of me. I wish he would push past my boundaries. Just so i wouldn't have to keep all my feeling and thoughts inside, it would be a weight off my shoulder, but i would never just let it out on my own. I just don't feel comfortable i guess.

"Oh there you are Aubrie!" I heard from the doorway of my kitchen, it was Jess of course.

"Oh sorry, you were still asleep when i woke up so i came down stairs to get something to eat...never got around to it though" I replied back to the questions i knew she would ask me.

"Oh it's fine! lets make our candy pancakes! oh and Bee wants to hangout later and i told her yes, okay? okay." Jessie quickly replied.

Hanging out with Bianca and Jess, this will be one interesting day..