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This summer my family and friends all came over to my summer house. My mom invited her friend and her friend's kids. My brothers and I invited our friends, too. He was a family friend, my mom's friend's son. We had a normal family-friend-relationship. Only seeing each other once or twice a year if at all, not knowing quite what to talk about, and of course, as all teenage girls do, trying to impress other teenage boys. BIG MISTAKE. I had no idea he was in love with me. How could I? We barely knew each other! I'm not pretty. I'm not funny. I'm not like those super-skinny, anorexic, models-to-be. I'm emotional. The only guys who have ever asked me out were either my best friends or have anger management problems. He had absolutely no reason to.

That summer we learned a lot about each other. Again, I was unaware of his feelings. Trying to pass the time, my friends and I played games teenagers would play. And one night we played truth or dare. My good friend asked him who he liked. The response she got was that he couldn't tell her. I had been getting subtle hints from him throughout the whole summer. In a way I wanted the girl he liked to be me. All of his descriptions of her sounded uncannily/strangely similar to me. But when he actually told me he liked me, I was speechless. I told him I was in love with another guy. Which was true at the time. Weeks later I realised I was over him. He said it was okay. I WISH HE HADN'T! I WISH HE HAD STARTED CRYING OR YELLING AT ME! IT WOULD HAVE MADE IT SO MUCH EASIER FOR ME! I know I'm being selfish, but all his confession did was make everything awkard between us. Every night all the kids stayed up late. Eventually that night, we were the only people actually awake.

I made evryone who knew swear they would tell no one. I just wanted to forget about it. But then my brother told my parents.

That night I cried myself to sleep. He hurt me. My brother hurt me. I am literally mentally scarred. I cry about it all the time. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO

because i'm lost