He was my best freind for so long,
and I was sure that we both had feelings for eachother.
Then I went and made a big mistake
by telling him to stay out of my life.
I have been blessed with his forgivness,
and even though he always asks me why I did what I did,
I am still glad to have his presence.
We used to be so close
Everyday, I would look outside and he would be waiting on my porch.
When I was grounded, he didn't do anything the whole time
it was like he was grounded as well.
e both used to be depressed,
and act like we were lovers.
Every ten minutes, he demanded a hug from me.
We would steal my shoes and make me chase him
he would tease me and want my attention
We were depressed, and I saw him cry a good 3 times.
He saw me cry at least twice.
He has always been right there
He always brings up my flaws.
He brings up the fact that I was once proud to say I never lie,
but now I lie in almost every sentence,
This has to be the longest thing I have said in so long
that didn't include a lie.
I used to cut and he would ask me why
I would say it was to escape.
He told me there was no point of yelling
to make me stop
and hoped I would simply stop myself.
When I told him to go away,
My cutting stopped.
He used to tell me he wanted to get hit by a car
or stab himself with his knife
I would say you wouldn't
and he would say that I knew him too well.
He would say that he wanted to join the army
he wanted to get shot and die.
I was not upset because of that because I knew it was a lie
But upset that he wanted to join the army
where I may never see him again.
Everytime he ever did or ever does bring up his dream,
his dream of joining the SEALS,
I die a little inside.
The last time he talked about it,
I cried.
I know that it must have been hard for him,
the things people have put him through,
including me,
that he was a depressed person.
He becomes cocky at times,
but regardless I want him here.
Whenever he promises something
he means to keep his promise on,
he says over his deceased sister's grave.
He was my best friend,
and I'd like to consider him that now.
Marty<33