One Last Chance

my whole world had just fallen apart, what had i done to myself. i lost my mother, my brother, my best friend, ex-boyfriend, and most importantly, the one person on this planet i knew i was destened to be with, forever, and i'd just given up the life of my baby. a stupid, reckless, carless, mistake, regret, this i would never forget, for the rest of my life, i'd have to live with this. my body was limp, weak, broken, my will was stolen, my hope had vanished, my life had been destroyed. blood ran down my leg's and puddled on the floor around me, and by this point, from what i can remember, he knew, and he was digusted. with one last throw he slammed his fist into my upper cheek, closer to my temple then what was safe. i fell to the floor, trying to keep what ever was left of my baby inside me, keep it alive, if it wasn't already dead. 

they say your whole life flashes before your eyes when you die. mine didn't - i'd seen everything i lost in my life time, but i could only see sky, and our baby, yes, our baby. i knew it was over, there was no coming back, no one would save me this time, no one could save me, no one wanted to save me. is this what i had done to myself? where was sky now. was he sitting at home, his arm's wrapped around his leg's, silent sob's inbetween breath's? was he out with alex, playing poker, or maybe swimming across an ocean, was he with some high class fake female he'd met at a bar? was he wondering where i was, was he blaming himself for the mistake he'd hidden from me? i didn't try to hold myself together, to hang on, too keep myself alive. it wasn't worth it, if i couldn't be with sky and our baby, i had nothing left to live for.